Monday 16 March 2009

Well today has been an ok day I suppose. I won't say bad because that's just negative thinking! After sleeping at Amy's house last night I woke up this morning feeling absolutely awful. What I don't know is why. I had a takeaway that night before I went to Amy's at about 6 o clock and didn't even eat all that, but as soon as I woke up on Amy's couch I felt blooming awful. We travelled back to university where I just had to get in bed I felt that ill. And so I missed my lectures today but I'll be okay me hopes! I slept until two when I finally felt better and then I did some work for my report on and off throughout the day, although half-heartedly. I need to get my bum in gear a bit more as I'm coming up to the final hurdle and I need to do well. I spoke to Rachel today about Canal Street in 2 weeks time and I would like it if we could make a day out of it. Recently I’ve been really craving human company, so much so in fact it’s caused arguments and upset. James has suggested that we take a break from each other until I can get my head sorted which is a good idea. He said that he’ll still see me at the weekend and I’ll want him so much. Just having him talk about how he truly feels about me is enough to make me open my eyes more and realise that I am controlling him to some extent. I don’t want to do that. It’s eye-opening when he compares me to my old self. Talking about my old-self I really want to lose weight. On Thursday the doctor’s scales recorded a loss of 6lb but I am still confused about which scales to follow. Nevertheless I should just try and focus on losing rather than the number. I can’t believe that tomorrow is Michelle’s due date! I am so nervous but yet excited for her I just hope that she and baby will be safe and well. As for my mum and jobs, it doesn’t look too good after she visited the job centre this morning. I really wish she would push herself to do what she wants and be happy and comfortable, but then again I can’t talk, I’ve been “losing weight” for the past 4 years! I would really like to make my mum proud and be a better friend to those who have stuck by me throughout my slipping in and out of their lives. So here is to a better me!

A new start

Well it's been a while since I last blogged and there's plenty a reason why that is so. I was doing fine on WW and had lost 16lbs but then came Christmas and revising for my January exams and all my hard work was undone. On top of that I found it really hard to get back in to WW because of my disappointment at having blown it and the fact that meetings were really crowded (as it was the new year) and were unfamiliar. Anyhow that is in the past now and it's taken me a few months but I'm here to try and start again. I feel as though I will not be where I want to be by my 21st birthday in June but nonetheless that should not mean that I should not try to do what I can! Onwards and upwards!

The countdown has begun

Well today my mum booked my room for my 21st party in June and after countless failed attempts at trying to lose weight throughout my teenage years, I decided that WW was the way to go. Although I was previously trying to do WW I decided to bite the bullet and attend meetings rather than just follow the plan online. So far this has worked for me as I have lost 9.5lbs in 4 weeks. This is my second attempt at trying to run a blog as an aid to weight loss but this time, hopefully, it will be more successful, as myself and others can follow my journey.

So here goes, had quite a bad weekend this week (as I went out for my friend's 21st) and got my WI tomorrow which I am quite worried about, I hope I can just get back on plan if I do have a loss. I am also looking forward to the new Discovery Plan which will be announced in tomorrow's meeting, and with any luck it might kickstart my weight loss again too. I also need to start getting in to walking again because I think that helps my weight loss but I have only walked once in the past week because the weather has been so freezing and I have developed a cold!

Wish my WI tomorrow goes well and I need to start getting my bum into gear with respect to university work! Will post tomorrow and let you know how I get on. Also check out some of the drunken photos from Friday night - oh deary! Will try to post pictures throughout my journey becuase I think it's important to :o)